Reflections on Five Years

I was recently looking back through the photos I've posted here, and the stories I've shared about my life. I find it amusing that I initially found the time to edit and post pictures here every single week. How on Earth did that happen? 

My first post was on New Year's Day 2020. COVID was only a few months away, and the world was soon to close in on all of us. My yoga studio shut down, putting an end to my in-person yoga and meditation classes as we all became effective prisoners in our own homes. For me, it became a time of growing closer to my housemates, Cathy and Tim. We all loved each other already, but when you're in someone's presence with no breaks and nowhere to go, you'll either find out how deep your love goes or you'll unearth some relationship weaknesses that you might not have known were there.

The three of us navigated the changes with a fair bit of grace, I believe, considering how much our lives were changing. Tim, who was usually out of the house eight hours a day, suddenly found himself telecommuting, doing most of the work he used to perform face to face through Zoom calls. Cathy, meanwhile, saw both of her sources of income dry up. She's a member of a professional dancing troupe, and she also works as a stripper. She's always said her heart is in dancing, but it's the exotic dancing that for her has paid the bills -- along with the extras she offered to patrons who were willing to pay for, shall we say, a premium one-on-one experience. And so to keep the income flowing, she took to the internet to offer sex cam experiences. At first, she roped me in for some live lesbian sex. She and I had done some live sex shows in Portland previous to that, and having enjoyed the thrill, I thought I'd give it a try. But it felt too impersonal and alienating to me to have sex for the pleasure of someone on a screen. It was fun to feed off the palpable energy and enthusiasm of a live crowd, and for me the online experience just didn't compare. Not that I'd do any of this today in my mid-forties, mind you. But after a few weeks, I bowed out and let her carry on as a solo performer. That worked out just fine for her. It's amazing how much men will pay to watch a pretty woman masturbate live on camera. Turned out she didn't need my help.

Meanwhile, I'd begun this blog just looking for something to do with my ever-growing trove of downloaded photos and videos that had provided me with my own abundant masturbatory pleasure over the years. I love women, and the female body, and the visual beauty of two (or more) women joined together in an intimate embrace -- and I wanted to celebrate all of that in my own way. Porn sites are a dime a dozen, and I wanted to do something a little different. Something a bit more focussed and perhaps more tasteful as well. 

It's a bit ironic, then, that I started this blog just a few short months after losing my lesbian gold star to Tim. In hindsight, perhaps I was trying to reassure myself that I truly was still a lesbian. After taking so much pride in having slept exclusively with women for my entire life, and having felt no sexual attraction to men for so long, I was suddenly faced with an identity conflict. Could I still call myself a lesbian? And what would it mean if I wasn't a lesbian anymore?  

Now here we are in early 2025, and this blog lives on, though in some ways it now feels like an echo of a time when life was very different for me. I do plan to keep it going, as I continue to enjoy curating images to share with the world. And for now, it's the only place I can do it. You may have noticed that on the banner of this blog are links to sex.com and Pinterest, where I also used to curate images for sharing. Well, sex.com no longer allows third-party uploads and has moved towards a business model that focusses on offering Pornhub-style clips and videos for its viewers, along with an OnlyFans-type content-creator section. I have little interest in either of those things, so I'm not very involved with sex.com anymore. 

Pinterest, as you can imagine, forces one to be far more discreet in what one shares. I had an album titled "Femininity" through which I showcased images that celebrated feminine beauty. No nudity, of course, just photos that emphasised the feminine form and tame depictions of feminine love and affection. Evidently, Pinterest's gatekeepers decided that some of my images, though I have not a clue which ones, were a bit too spicy for the site and mass-deleted all three thousand of my images. Pinterest chose to send a message, and it certainly sent one, loud and clear. I harbour no resentment over it. Pinterest can allow or disallow whatever it chooses on its site. But it would have been nice to receive a warning, so that perhaps I could have downloaded my images before they simply poofed out of existence. 

As such, I'm thinking about directing my energies towards curating more images for this blog. I can't possibly go back to uploading as frequently as I once did. I simply don't have the time. But one thing I think I lost sight of over the years is that I always intended for this blog to feature images that titillated more than they simply portrayed graphic sex acts, which you can get on any porn site. But graphic imagery has its place as well. So I was thinking about adding tiers of content, such that in any given month, I might offer each of the following:

Tier 1: Kissing and cuddling. PG-13, perhaps, in cinematic terminology. The kind of thing that's fairly tame, even if Pinterest disagrees.

Tier 2: Various states of undress, but no naughty bits. Women unclothing each other, or perhaps nude but with all intimate body parts left to the imagination. Leaning towards being rated R, I suppose.

Tier 3: Breasts and bums exposed. Roaming hands, tangled tongues, maybe some sexy toe-sucking here and there. Rated R, perhaps?

Tier 4: Sexual contact implied but not depicted. Genitals may be exposed. NC-17.

Tier 5: Full-on explicit sex, with nothing left to the imagination. Unabashed XXX porn.

There would be some overlap and grey areas, but I think judging which images go in which tier would be part of the fun. I'll see how it goes. Not too many visit this blog anymore, but I'm happy to provide what I hope is a different experience for those who do come here. Of course, I do this for myself as well. If anyone else enjoys what I post here, that's just a bonus. We shall see what the coming months bring.

Thanks as always for visiting.